Recently, a friend of mine on face book posted this verse. Galatians 6:9 Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. I stared at the verse for a long time reading it over and over. I wasn't sure why I was so drawn to the verse but the word weary kept jumping out at me. I decided to look up what weary means; it means feeling or showing tiredness, especially as a result of excessive exertion or lack of sleep. To be come tired or wearied by a situation, tired, wearisome, tiresome, exhausted, fatigued. It hit me right in gut. I have been struggling lately and just couldn't find the right word to describe how I was feeling until that word Weary was right in front of me. It was like a light bulb was turned on and I said to myself, yes, that is exactly it! Weary. What a great word to describe how I feel right now.
Weariness is more than just feeling tired. I am reminded daily of how different our lives are from what you would consider the "normal" and have become weary in wishing or hoping that just one thing would be easy. I am weary from wanting things to be different and that my son would find a place were he would feel excepted . I am weary from lack of sleep, being woke up numerous times a night to help Ryan turn over in bed. I am weary watching my mom continue her fight against cancer. I am weary as I watch other people in my life fight sickness. I am weary of seeing so many people I love struggle.
These feelings are not new, I have been on this roller coaster before and know that it will pass and I will be okay with it all but for now I can not give you wonderful words on how I have overcome these recent feelings. I am not to that point yet. So what to do in the midst of all this? I continue on and try as the verse says not to give up. I am holding onto this promise found in Psalms 27:13, I am confident (hope) of this; I WILL(expect) see the goodness (answer) of the Lord in the land of the living! Wait, take heart and Wait on the Lord. HOPE, EXPECT, ANSWER,WAIT!
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Monday, September 3, 2012
A Teachers Mind
I am not a teacher nor do I have the gift of teaching but for many reasons ( I will share more detail in that later), I am feeling God pull me to home-school Ryan for this coming school year . It is not a surprise to me, I have been fighting and ignoring this feeling for sometime now. I have finally surrendered, knowing this is what God wants me to do.
Over the years my boys have had many different teachers. I can tell you from experience that there are those who just do the job, and then there are those who have a passion, a gift for teaching.
My friend Laura has the gift of teaching. I just wanted to share a little in-sight into the mind of a teacher through a phone conversation I had with her recently. We were talking about my decision to home school Ryan. I was saying how unprepared I felt and she was giving me encouragement. We talked about how Ryan and I just recently went to Northwest Trek that Ryan loved to watch the bald eagles. She said homeschooling Ryan is as easy as taking that interest and turning it into a learning experience. I said, your right I can have him look it up on the internet! So much for my great teaching ideas. So here is where the great teaching mind comes in; She said Yes, that is a start but go even further. I then heard excitement in her voice as she began to speak. She said you can easily do a unit study on the Eagle bringing in science, geology, history, art, and even English into the lesson. By this time she was really excited, I could just imagine her face lighting up as she continued to give specific details on how to do it all. I listened and then started to chuckle. Yes, she has the gift of teaching and it was fun to hear all the ideas she had that I would have never thought of. It is funny how she took that one small thing and turn it into so much more, that's the mind of a gifted teacher!
While I am not a teacher, nor to I feel equipped to do this job I do know that for now I will become what Ryan needs. As the saying goes, "God doesn't call the equipped, he equips the called". I am holding onto that truth and thankful that there are a few of those passionate, gifted teachers in my life that I can hopefully call upon when I need help!
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